Before XTR synthesis trials are possible I have neutralized the nano transmitters within my bloodstream through photonic lattice separation — dismantling any potential communication with The Grid. Though it seems there is no connection to it, I am certain they are attempting to track my location and bioprint.
It is necessary for the substance to interact with biological material to replicate the signature as how it has been captured from A6ia.
I am the control.
ADMINISTRATION METHOD: Vapor Bath
ONSET: 15 - 60 seconds
Uncontrolled palpitating breaths. The howling jungle turns to hush.
— eyelids heavy.
A viscous mouth and weakened neck pull my forehead downwards.
I crack it back — gravity suspends. Senses merge, cutting diagonally from the back of my skull and into a dimensionless dark. The liquid black begins to crack with vibrating shards of fluttering light.
“Beyond the use of time. Beyond anxiety, fear, sadness or isolation: welcome to the roots of the infinite,” a chorus of guides reveal.
Anxious and breathless…I can’t shake the illusion. Amassing serotonin is creating these auditory and visual hallucinations—nothing more.
“It doesn’t matter,” resonates throughout.
Under surrender, the guides share their non-binary technique for aqueous travel. With it, we flow through a network of root systems, beyond endless civilizations — exploring the tendrils that connect all biological material.
This substance must be fading. Sentiments from the control state of consciousness begin to return. The abilities weaken. The guides help transform a grouping of the surrounding roots into a capsule. I enter.
The shadow of Abaddon, Horus, and Anubis permeate the craft. Through a series of clicks, strikes, and cellular convergence we ascend and evolve into a singular traveling mechanism—oscillating into a freedom beyond time and worry of previous forms. A tether pulls.
Autonomic system memory lapsing. The body is reacting to the separation—perceiving this as potential death.
Serotonin leveling. Vision fading.
The howling jungle returns.
Inexplicably, I am now aware of a method for refining and increasing its purity and amplification. Dosage and administration method of the purified form will need to run trial.
TRIAL 2 - TRIAL 57
Administration & Reaction
5Kµg - 6,4Kµg
Months beyond now.
Near identical reaction with every trial — no matter the method of administration. Each ascent a murky womb. The Guides have stopped appearing.
Caught within the divided state. Flattening into the atmosphere.
To go any further, the method for administration must stretch beyond convention.
Procedure photonic nanotech reprogramming
Inverting the polarity of half of my nanobots I have reprogrammed the carrier signals within the expanded DNA to allow for substance adherence. As these regions are highly regulated, there is no possibility that A6ia took this without the aid of augmentation and an operator.
ADMINISTRATION METHOD: Nanotransmited Injection
ONSET: 0.03 Seconds
First, the anticipation— like always. Twisting vine of visions and then the aural starts—
Cheek — side of face, numb.
I tongue the inside of my mouth, bite at it to feel. All that’s there is cold.
Waves of searing sharp pain continue throughout the dermis. A persistent gift since the separation. Prolonged exposure to the substance must have damaged neurons causing paresthesia. Monitoring cellular structure to ensure the substance has not mutated into a virus.
Separation near the boundary of maintaining a sustainable equilibrium. Tracking is limited and degraded because of it. Before any trials can resume, containment is essential.
Augmentation Nervous System Containment
A stasis mechanism maintains the central and peripheral systems so the tether of consciousness is controllable. With it, I can establish the duration to signal these systems to resume function. Each Ascent trains me in controlling these signals from within the separation state.
The Helixian Root
With the containment mechanism, a full dose within the expanded helix is possible. What I previously thought were hallucinations induced by the primitive XTR strains I now know is a heightened sensory perception. When on it, I see and hear multiple angles of an experience at once by breaking it into infinite slivers of subatomic matter, as if instead of the limited two-dimensional point-of-view were spun into a sphere of liquid.
I plunge my hands within and smear it across the sky.
Palms twist to face me. The liquid pulls from sky to palms to eyes.
Roots of the infinite, stretching from the sky through me and into the earth below to a flowering red and white vine. I’ve seen it once before. Another hallucination? A memory from my old life?
TRIAL 77: Ascension state
Extraction of the unidentifiable red and white vine produced a 99.7% match to substance likeness found in A6ia. A control trial will see if the interaction with my augmented strain will make up the remainder.
The result of this ascent could be death.